The Blank Canvas

Finn Roche with Kids on beach

The Blank Canvas

No one can prepare us for the unique space that presents itself (and what to even do with it), after any kind of change. There is no manual for how to live from our heart and it can feel very uncertain and unfamiliar. 

Although this unknown space can feel scary, it is equally freeing… this is where the magic to create lies.

Finn and I call it, Our Blank Canvas. 

After the big move, Finn and I took the entire fall and winter months, sitting in the discomfort of the unknown. Sifting through the pain body that surfaced as we adjusted and adapted to this new idea of a Blank Canvas. 

We consciously knew we had intentionally initiated big changes, but didn’t know exactly what it would look like. Without relying on the systems and structures we had contributed to for so long, we quickly realized that we would now have to create these systems for ourselves. 

This made us feel very overwhelmed in many moments. 

How do we choose what to put our attention to (and when), when we already feel we have so many other hats that we are wearing!?! 

Needless to say, over several months of divine waiting and observing, Finn and I gained some clarity. This gave us the confidence to start reflecting, manifesting, and vision boarding to ensure our intentions were loud and clear. 

Only then could we began the process of organizing and implementing the several baby action steps towards our goals. 

When we are divinely waiting can feel confusing, frustrating, and/or uncomfortable as we want to know what the future holds, or what our purpose is, and if we are on the right track… in that exact moment. 

However, this moment in time is a critical part of our growth and healing process. It creates spaces to feel, heal, explore, venture, enjoy, rest, discover, reflect, process, slow down. And then, when the timing is right, clarity comes; always arriving when we are ready. 

So here we are today, in the next phase of our action steps… getting the property ready for our 9 Week Summer Day Camp Program, including Swimmer 1 Swimming Lessons.  Putting in driveways, swing sets, renovating sheds into cabins, and gardens to prepare our sacred land for our Campers next week.  

To reflect back to all the action steps that were required to get this magnificent opportunity up and running makes our hearts sing.

We are so grateful for listening to our heart’s aspirations and putting them into action! And equally grateful knowing we get to share our services and love with the community. 

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Open Your Heart. Free Your Soul

Open Your Heart. Free Your Soul

A few things were key for me when my awareness expanded around the concepts of enjoyment, play and creativity. Here are a few tips that really helped me open my heart and free my soul.

CREATE THE SPACE

Look at your schedule and see how you can create tangible space. What can you let go of? What task/responsibility is no longer serving you? Think about what you would rather be doing with your time and energy. Then write down small action steps that you feel inspired to do in order to achieve these desires. Schedule them into your routine. Listen for how your heart feels. 

PUT HEALTHY BOUNDARIES IN PLACE

Always be willing to disappoint others before being willing to disappoint yourself when it comes to the space you create for yourself. Full disclosure… this may put you in situations where you have to practice speaking your truth. And then you may start to become curious about what your truth even is. In time you will learn valuable things about yourself and others throughout these hard conversations. As long as you always speak from a loving place you are not responsible for how the other party receives the information. Do not feel guilty for the time you create for yourself. To honour yourself is to love the shit out of yourself first. 

HONOURING YOUR SELF WORTH IS MAKING YOURSELF AS IMPORTANT AS OTHERS.

LET GO OF EXPECTATIONS

Take a look at yourself from above. Watch yourself. Observe. What patterns do you notice where you have expectations on yourself, others or even Source. Expectations of who you have to be, or why you have to do something. Expectations of how others should fit into your values and expectations of how you should fit into other people’s values. Expectations of who God is and what “he” should be doing for you or what “you” need to be doing for him. 

Expectations. Create. Blocks. When we approach life from this perspective we create layers of limited versions of ourselves which make it even harder for us to hear what our actual truth is. We may over extend ourselves and end up voluntarily giving up our most sacred, most valuable time for ourselves. Over time, these patterns make us feel depleted, unworthy, tired. 

EMBRACE YOUR INNER CHILD

Now is the time you will take small steps forward towards feeling lighter, freer, playful, creative. You have made the space to explore what you enjoy, you have honoured your sacred time with healthy boundaries, and have chipped away at the layers that have grown over your past.

IN THIS SPACE YOU WILL FIND MORE MOMENTS OF PRESENCE, JOY, INSPIRATION AND LAUGHTER ALLOWING YOU TO FEEL OPEN AND FREE TO ALL THE GIFTS OUR UNIVERSE HAS TO OFFER.

How You Can Incorporate Play Into Your Life

How You Can Incorporate Play Into Your Life

INVITING ENJOYMENT, PLAY AND CREATIVITY

I spent a lot of my childhood observing… collecting data as I eagerly tried to make sense of this world I felt I had little connection to. The voice inside my heart did not resonate with the outside world I saw with my eyes. In moments of stillness, my heart told me that happiness was simple, quiet and safe. Yet, when my eyes looked outwards they saw possessions, status, money, even relationships making people “happy”. 

Over time the power of consumerism silenced the voice of my heart and I became desensitized to the distorted views of our Western Culture; many of them becoming a part of my own limited belief system. I began to set these unrealistic, unattainable “expectations” for myself, thinking that once I had the money, the car, the job, the house, the relationship then I would be worthy of happiness. As I continued to grow, society taught me to look outwards for reassurance, happiness and purpose, taking me further and further away from my hearts’ truth. 

It wasn’t until I began having kids that I realized how seriously I had been taking life and how stuck in my head I actually was. 

I HAD FORGOTTEN HOW TO ENJOY…

PLAY…

CREATE.


As I sat on the floor with my first born child, watching her explore the world for the very first time, I remembered. 

ENJOYMENT, PLAYFULNESS AND CREATION NATURALLY EMERGE WHEN

OUR HEARTS ARE OPEN AND OUR SOULS FEEL FREE. 

It was then I realized that I had spent too much time looking outwards when instead it was time to look inwards. I started observing myself, my thoughts, my feelings, asking myself questions along the way to help me re-discover the engagements that I found joyful. 

WHEN DOES MY HEART FEEL OPEN?

MY SOUL FEEL FREE? 

WHAT DOES ENJOYMENT, PLAY, CREATIVITY

LOOK LIKE, SOUND LIKE, TASTE LIKE, FEEL LIKE TO ME? 

While I collected data through observing my own actions, thoughts and feelings, I further remembered a deep knowingness that enjoyment, play and creation (for me) were always quiet actions. Gentle movements. Peaceful. 

I discovered that I am fully enjoying when I consciously flirt with my husband or our daughters through tickles and giggles. My heart is open when I give myself the space to sit in stillness. This is where I create, visualizing my aspirations and asking the universe “how does it get any better than this?” I am free at play when I move my body through my yoga practice. My soul feels free when I am barefoot in nature or listening to the whispers of the trees.

When you open your heart and free your soul… how do you choose to incorporate enjoy, play and creativity into your life?

Embracing Change

Embracing Change

It always brings me comfort when remembering Louise Hay’s teachings about how we each divinely choose our parents as they are our guides to help us grow and evolve in love and wisdom. This concept has grounded me many times throughout my journey, especially during the waves of pregnancy, giving birth and postpartum healing; these experiences in themselves left my mind, body and spirit changed forever each time. 

Knowing that our daughters chose me specifically to be their mother helps me feel supported by the divine and embrace change with grace especially when it seems as challenging as the one I am currently living now.

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My healing process after Rosemary consisted of multiple daily flower baths and applying ointments to help nurture my yoni. I healed quite quickly and was thankful for all the “work” I put into myself in order to bounce back rather quickly. 

With Lavender, I didn’t expect healing to look so different. I assumed because of my “experience” I would be equally prepared to heal in the same ways I did with Rosemary. Boy was this the farthest thing from the truth.

The unexpected chronic back pain and thus my inability to hold my newborn baby for long durations of time took me by complete surprise, leaving me humbled, yet dead curious. 

Diastasis what? I replied to my midwife. What the hell is that? This was after I refused to leave her office as I knew something didn’t feel right. The separation between my two abdominal walls (what they call Diastisis Recti) had been stretched so badly from pregnancy that my organs had nothing to hold them in, leaving my back to overcompensate for the rest of me. 

Within a week of giving birth I had my team set in place to help support my journey to self healing: nutritionist, lactation consultant, reiki master, osteopath, chiropractor, yoga teacher, mother, physiotherapist etc. I knew this next part of my journey would have to be a true testament to everything I had learned in the past ten years around healing the mind, body and spirit. I also knew it would take time, dedication, patience and a whole lot of grace. 

After months of releasing… surrendering… reflecting… and wondering… I am significantly stronger and will continue to heal one day at a time, gaining more clarity and information around my dis-ease. 

I understand her more. 

I have more compassion for her.

I am grateful for where she is guiding me to go.

I am worthy of love.